Discipline required!

This is the 3rd post of the day but quite unlike the previous 2 (other 2 not public :P). I just think that i have got this sudden thrust to write on the blog. Cant find friends to talk online and i want to talk a lot right now! Anyways,

I think i have lost discipline in my life a bit.

SLEEP:
I cant control my sleep these days. Invariably have to put an alarm for atleast half an hour before required as i feel nice to just keep snoozing it off! That happens 3 times everyday for 9 mins each and i ultimately wake up right on time. But it feels nice that i do wake up when needed!
The infinite resistance which i can develop to sleeping is still there! Glad that i can control myself and stay awake for any number of hours at a stretch even now. But just the "i cant wake up once i sleep" is what is niggling me a bit today...


GRUB:
I dont seem to have discipline in this area as well. I dont have any enthu whatsoever to have breakfast in the morning as it give me extra 15 mins to cash in on sleep. I occasionally miss lunch in afti, mostly this happens on Tuesday afti. I have a class at 12 and then again at 2. It is really hot to come back all the way to mess at 1 and again go back within 15-20 mins. Atleast i claim so. Havent had lunch on Tuesday afti for i think 3 weeks.
Sometimes in the evening it so happens that i am dead tired and just prefer to sleep for an hour and this hour comes at 6 30 PM. Sleep that time and needless to say, cant get up till 8 30. Dont want to wake up till 8 30. End up missing grub that time.
Overall, i go for evening tea religiously everyday and have snacks that time. When i eat i eat a lot so its not such a worry i guess.
But i do want to improve the hit count at the mess...

BATH:
Dont want to make this one public but its less than once a day! :(

Mug puts:
I want to mug properly from tomorrow. After all its the last month of the sem and i want to do well in this sem. I want to. I want to.. only this constant telling myself is going to help me i guess! :P

Time pass / chatting / orkutting:
It is happening a lot and i seriously want to cut down on the time i have been spending since last 2-3 days. Its like the exam gets over and i have all the enthu in the world to talk with everyone in the world! I have to do some thinking on this front and seriously reduce orkutting. Chatting, well its less only, so not such a worry.

All in all, it seems like i need to read this post tomorrow again so that i can start getting back to work.

I feel with all my heart that I SHOULD BE BUSY ALL THE TIME, constantly have deadlines ahead of me, IF IM NOT BUSY I END UP WASTING THE TIME I GET.

DISCIPLINE!

DREAM...

Had this weird dream today morning at 9 30 when i was crashing for some 20 mins. I remember very clearly as to what i saw...

I had gone to a trek to Chandratal Lake some 200 kms from Manali (well this is actual).

Now i begin with the dream

After reaching the lake we met some localite there and he said that there are 5 lakes surrounding this lake. He pointed out 5 small hills around this lake and said u can see the lakes if u go atop any one of the hills.
Very very enthu about seeing 5 lakes in the middle of snow covered mountains, 3-4 from our group started climbing the hills. We reached on top in some 1 hour or so and then we were very very very surprised to see that indeed there were 5 lakes surrounding the Chandrataal...
But the scene was a lot different from what i had pictured. We were almost shocked to see what we saw. This is what we saw...

From the hill, looking in one direction we could see that the snow covered mountains just vanished somewhere. There was a landscape which would look like a typical "Pune" seen from top of our Tekdi!!!

Then there was bright sunshine and another direction had a scene which i had seen from Manas resort entrance looking down on the Manas lake, some 15 kms from my house in Pune!!!!
Seeing this in the middle of Himalayas was quite a surprise.

Looking in the third direction we saw Pakistan flag flying high on top of 1 distant hill and Indian flag just on the hill before it!

Then we went a little ahead a bit and were surprised to see a heli-pad in the middle of nowhere! I dont know what surrounded it and nothing other than that it was a heli-pad and even more weird, some indian airlines planes !

Then suddenly there was the Kumbharli Ghat which essntially joins Konkan to east side of it...
There were the same roads which i remember and the same vehicles and the same people i can recollect from my Kumbharli Ghat trip!BTW, i have gone to Kumbharli ONLY ONCE!!!!


Going a little further we could see an army jeep coming rigt from the middle of the hill we were standing on. Some kind of secret road! We were walking for the past 4 days to reach Chandrataal lake just because there are no approach roads, and there i saw a jeep coming right thru the mountain! Gave up kind of, but still wondered, what place is this!!!!!

Still wondering, but now on something else...What did the dream mean? What and why did i see Pune as seen from Tekdi and "THE SPOT" i am thinking of? Why did i see India and Pakistan flags?? Why did i see the Manas lake and the Manas lake resort??? Why did i see Kumbharli Ghat???? And lastly, why did i walk to reach such a place for 4 days and was told that there are no approach roads when i can see a jeep coming right through the mountain through a tunnel!!!

What did the dream mean?? Or just some weird max of the moments of my life???

Do these places signify the moments of my life, moments when i have been very very very happy and hence remember the spots exactly???

Tekdi spot surely does have a relation with extreme happiness (a place where i go everytime when i go on tekdi. the place where every relation seemed so strong!!!), Kumbharli does (Trip with all my closest of relatives), Manas does (First time i did Go-Karting, and im a crazy for driving person !!!), Was the helipad and the planes the scene which i might have seen first time i boarded a plane (well i was very small then, so cant recollect maybe)??? but why India and Pakistan flags??

Still Wondering! :)

An UNEXPECTEDLY EVENTFUL evening...

Yesterday was quite a boring day. Had to mug for Rocket Propulsion exam which was already looking a night mare! Open notes, Open book, Open ended too! Had read my notes once in the evening and kind of knew where what exists. No need to mug anything as it was all open...
Sat down to read again after grub but it was terribly boring. Could not resist orkutting all the while with my scraps increasing by atleast 20 ! (Well that takes usually a month to happen :P)

Anyways, so, terribly bored at 10 and nothing to do, thought of going to CCD for the much celebrated Spinach corn Sandwich. Siva had gone for CS treat so thought that he can join directly from Tiffany's. Cupper DITCHED me and said he cant come before 1. Cycle was desperate for Dosa at Tiffany's as he didnt have cash in his 450 bucks wallet! :D I didnt want to go there so DITCHED Cycle! :P
Went to Munnu's room and the normal picture came up. Utterly psyched with mug puts Munnu needed a break and agreed to come till Gurunath..
Went back and called Cycle.. And finally the 3 of us started for Gurunath.

Dont know why, Cycle managed to convince me to go to Tiffany's when we were just about to enter Guru. DITCHED Munnu and both of us turned towards Tiffany's! Didnt know what happened with Munnu after that! Thought he wud have been angry as he was already psyched! Chalta hai.. Gussa hoga aur bhool jaega! :P

Had a delicious Masala Dosa in Tiffany's. Cycle had his claimed to be "routine" Plain Dosa. But the reason was, he didnt have more than 10 bucks! :P
Met Siva there whos treat was almost getting over. Time for farting.. Farted in Tiffany's for a while and both of them convinced me to go to CCD now!!! I was just too despo for the Sandwich and hence agreed. Plus i had only 15 bucks in my pocket so, Bill was going to be paid by Siva! Added motivation! :P

Went to CCD, Sandwich was over. :(
Ordered cold chocolate. Chocolate is something i always fall for anytime of the day and however full i already am! So, had cold chocolate! It was awesome.. Felt satisfied :D

But the turn of events after this just made the early night memorable! We were already wondering if we wud see Munnu around the Girls hostel as it was Amandeeps's birthday! Ob he had to come there to wish his GF! Just as we were discussing this, saw Munnu and Gera too!!!
Some preparation was going on and instantly i could see, we were in for a treat! :D
Ob waiting a must for Birthday Cake! :P

Sang Happy Birthday for Aman. Gen some here and there talking, pulling each others legs and then it was even more ecstacy!
Gals from Sharav had got a BIG "chocolate" cake for Aman and very very obvious, i cudnt have resisted again! Sang Happy Birthday again with them, desperately waiting for the cake to be cut. Kirti wasted 1 piece of the 12 that were made by putting it on Aman's face! Sad Kirti!!! U wasted CHOCOLATE CAKE!!! x(

Out of the 12 pieces made, i ate 2 right then and there. Then there was Siva who didnt want to eat, so one more, and while leaving there was 1.5 more piece left. Put the half one in my mouth and took the last one in my hand to eat while going back! So it was 4.5 pieces!!! thats like almost half the cake!! GOD!! Chocolate cake Chocolate cake Chocolate cake!!!

Couldnt have asked for anything more on this highly unromantic evening in the middle of quiz 2...
Thanks Cycle for convincing me to go to Tiffany's and Thanks Cycle and Siva for convincing me to go to CCD. And most importantly, Thanks Munnu and all the Sharav Junta who Got such delicious Cake for me!!! hahaha...

MAJA AA GAYA!!! I want to eat more cake!!!!

Cake khane ke liye hum kahi bhi ja sakte hai
- Sameer.

Wing treat!

Wing treats @ 2nd wing Godav havent been quite a nice time for all us wingies. The reasons being, grossly unmanaged evenings and the lack of going to new places as someone or the other is always busy on any given day. Still, i feel proud that the wing has never ditched more than 3 people at max from a lot of 15-17 odd at every treat! Doing that consistently for 10 times or so is quite a job!

Anyway, todays treat was from Muski, Siva and me. The reasons being quite varied this time again unlike the usual Birthday treats. It was Muski's birthday, Siva's birthday and Intern in California and My generosity at pleasing the wing for every arbit reason on the earth, well apart from an intern in UK :P
I had been avoiding the treat for quite sometime i must say but finally even i knew i had to give it and it couldnt have come at a worse time!!!

Just yesterday India lost and is kind of out of the WC. More to it has been written in the post below this one. Was totally not in a mood to celebrate something and am still lamenting India's loss. Still the perseverance of Cycle and Co. forced me to agree to treat. Decisions were taken instantaneously after 7 O clock at night and we needed to leave early so that we could get back early and mug (all this is in the middle of quiz 2 remember! :D)

Started off from hostel quite late. BJ acting like he is pained, which he does almost regularly was the Bakra of the evening. Siva, Me and Cycle were going to go by bus to main gate and had no enthu what so ever in cycling all the way. Plus, we could chat about how nicely we are paining BJ! :)
Ishan and Setia joined us at Guru from a place where all of us were running away. Cant believe they had dinner for the sole reason that they have to cycle all the way till main gate! Dayaa max!
So, 5 of us in bus, while Gera, BJ (well that shud be Gera-BJ) , Floor, Botter and Munnu went on cycle. We reached main gate by 8 20 or so and were soon together.
Interesting things already happening with BJ in his routinely pained style "BARKING" out galis just as we got down from the bus! (C****,B*******,M*********) He had them all lined up nicely to sound like a poem! (Sorry BJ but u are the bakra in this post too)

Reached Sangeetha after the 450 bucks Wallet purchase by Cycle (well, 450 for a wallet!!!! I dont remember keeping that much cash in my wallet too!!!) Arpit and Muski had come on their bike 20 mins before us and had already been in queue so we got a place to sit almost instantly. But there were people missing. Munnu Gera and BJ were off somewhere. Later it was claimed that Munnu ran and got into a bus to Adyar main stop quite unnecessarily leaving Gera and BJ all alone! (well thats like heaven!!!) :D
Munnu did agree that he did something like that to go and purchase some concentrated sherbat bottle and pickles i guess.
So finally we were all 12 there.

Ordering was quite a mess and im glad it was done in groups unlike some other treats! It is much quicker this way! All of us stuck to normal Indian food with Roti, Naans, Kulchas, Cheese Kulchaas, Rumali rotis, Paneer naan and Alu naan (Thats one heck of a list!!!) and standard sabjis with it. Cycle the C*** has to do something different everytime and obly went for Southy food when everyone else was eating Norhty! :)
Cycles 1st order was something like "Kuzhi paniyaram"...(Appe in Marathi according to me)which was promptly finished off by Me, Siva, Setia and Muski. He ordered one more which was finished again almost instantly by Ishan, Munnu, Botter, BJ, Gera, Arpit and Floor. Cycle i think got a taste of the dish while all others ate considerable proportions! :D

There were photo sessions and video sessions too going around the table. And then the greatest thing of the day started! :)
BJ narrated his "OLD" "Sher aur Kutta" joke. This i dont know gave dirty enthu to some of us and the dirty/ non veg /low level jokes just kept coming! Cycle tried to change the mood by telling a "Jamalgota" joke which was quite naturally booed by Junta! The focus of today was SHER aka BJ :D
The level really dropped with my "Sher aur Gadha" joke and junta kind of gave up with Floors "Pagdi" wala joke! That was one hell of a joke!!! lol...
Still one could already see that the mood was nice, the foodwas tasty and the place was cozy and the time just about ideal for the iitians daily fart sessions to begin! :D

Had food, payed off an overestimated bill and left the place. We wanted to walk all the way to the Hostel... Thats something like 4 kms atleast i think. Still it was just what the doctor ordered for me! (DOCTOR, pun intended, those who get good, others dont think about it) :D

On the way back it was an irritating Setia constantly shouting and interrupting Cycles jokes with his TJs(Torturing jokes)! Muski told some school days Sardarji jokes in his standard MUSKI style. I dropped down one more level below with the Clinton - Vajpayee and Monica joke! And i dont remember when was the last time i enjoyed myself so much while telling NV jokes! It was simply awesome !!!
Then as we reached GC, there were some of us having enthu for CCD, but ultimately that was ditched. Ended up walking till Guru and surprisingly found it open (well almost closed). The time was ideal for yet another fart session to begin and 5 of us, Sva, me, Setia, Cycle and Muski sat down with a bottle of 2 ltr Pepsi between us. Farted there for some half an hour and then came back to hostel...
Oh yeah, there were also some hilarious kisse told by Muski about the perennially Jobless Mech junta!!! Too good!!! The double meaning, the double benches and the TTN, i remember it all! :)

All in all, the evening couldnt have been better and the time more amazing with all the wingies. Spent a lot again (well has become quite usual) but have no doubt that it was totally worth it!
You guys rock, We the wingmates rock!

Love you all guys! (Please no double meanings in this)

DEVASTATED!

Yesterday's loss against Sri Lanka has still not gone off my mind. I am still finding it painful to accept that I wont be able to see India in this World Cup again. In fact, I wont be able to see Sachin, Dravid and Ganguly ever in the World Cup probably.
Feeling terribly frustrated and yet have to accept that i cant think of it all the time. Have to accept that WE DIDN'T DESERVE TO WIN YESTERDAY. The way Sri Lanka played was simply awesome. Every single little step in the match seemed to be well planned. The way they fielded, the way they bowled was so heartening to see and yet so impossible to accept because India was batting.

India are to blame themselves more than anything else. With atleast 3 of the top batsmen in form throwing away their wickets at crucial moments in the match. Sachin's dismissal was one heck of a ball from Fernando and he couldnt have done much even though he is SACHIN.

The fate of our team still depends on the match between Bangladesh and Bermuda, but that is hardly a dependency to rely upon! Unless some miracle happens, INDIA IS OUT OF THE WORLD CUP. And sadly this miracle is not in our hands but in someone elses. We would have pulled of a miracle if it was necessary, but unfortunately 23rd March was not the day.

I don't know how much more restless i can get over the defeat and its not about the defeat too...
Its about seeing India with Sachin, Dravid and Ganguly ever again in World Cup!!! :-(

To sum it up i think i can draw 2 conclusions...

1. India is a hopeless team of the best individual talents in the world!

2. We cannot win a match without Sachin. He has to contribute with the bat if Team India has to even think of winning!!

Restless or what!

Its been quite sometime since i wrote about something related to me directly. As i sit down on this Wednesday afternoon wondering what should i write, i can only say that there are so many things about which i want to express my views upon. In fact, very very strong views, concerns, whatever one may call it.
Some of the things which are taking up my time when i sit down to study are,

Hell

What the hell is happening in Aero dept @ IITM
Why the hell don't i have enthu this sem.
Why the hell does everything come down to "does your grade card show that"
Why the hell do seniors look so so so comfortable!
Why the hell have i stopped exercising in the evening.
Why the hell is my cell phone balance reducing so fast!!! ( ;-) )
Why the hell is everyone around me so pretentious.
Why the hell cant i control my sleep these days.
Why the hell is there so much heat in Chennai.
Why the hell do i invariably miss grub at mess 3 times a week (exactly)
Why the hell isn't BTech of 3 years only.
Why the hell did Pakis lose!
Why the hell is life so unfair and yet you have nothing more to say that you get what you deserve!
Why the hell does it have to be YES or NO always!
Why the hell wont it be the same ever again even if you have the YES or NO whichever you wanted in the first place!
Why the hell...

Heaven

It feels so nice that the world seems to go around smoothly with or without me!
It feels so nice that everyone around me is so wonderful.
It feels so nice to sit idle in the middle of quiz 2 and write a post on the blog.
It feels so nice not to attend classes for 1-2 WHOLE days.
It feels so nice to wake up at 1 o clock in the afternoon on weekends.
It feels so nice to sit and think about the work i will be doing in summer.
It feels so nice that i am going to go away from the current "world" around me.
It feels so nice to talk with someone.
It feels so nice that how much ever i decide i will give up this sem, i know i wont!!! :D
It feels so nice to see India thrash a 400 + score
It feels so nice to see Ferrari and Kimi win.
It feels so nice that life moves on!
It feels so nice that life has to move on!
It feels so nice...

Overall, the utterly confused me as i always am, im restless about something yet confident about it and on top of it i don't know what this "it" is!
Just wish life goes on like this with so many worries yet so many moments to cherish and remember for all my life!

Reason for the title...

Just changed the title of my blog to "Jo Jeeta Wohi Sikandar!"

One of the things which has been on my mind since many days is to write something about my views on winning and losing...well, no time right now, but i guess the title of the blog pretty much sums up my views.

Will just paste some lines from Kavika's orkut profile (Thanks Kavika)

If you think you're beaten, you are;
If you think you dare not, you don't;
If you'd like to win, but think, you can't
It's almost a cinch you won't.
If you think you will lose, you're lost;
For out in the world we find,
Success begins with a fellow's will,
It's all in the state of mind.

If you think you're outclassed, you are;
You got to think high to rise.
You got to hustle before
You can ever win a prize.
Life's battles don't always go
To the stronger or faster man,
But sooner or later the man who wins
Is the one who thinks he can.

If you truly believe in something, it WILL happen...

Inspiration

Found this article in a magazine which i was recently reading. Really inspiring as the title suggests.
Don't know the author though...

Attitude determines Attitude

I woke up early today, excited over all i get to do before the clock strikes midnight. I have responsibilities to fulfill today. I am important. My job is to choose what kind of day i am going to have.

Today i can complain because the weather is rainy or i can be thankful that the grass is getting watered for free.

Today i can feel sad that i don't have more money or i can be glad that my finances encourage me to plan my purchases wisely and guide me away from waste.

Today i can grumble about my health or i can rejoice that i am alive.

Today i can lament over all that my parents didn't give me when i was growing up or i can feel grateful that they allowed me to be born.

Today i can cry because roses have thorns or i can celebrate that thorns have roses.

Today i can mourn my lack of friends or i can excitedly embark upon a quest to discover new relationships.

Today i can whine because i have to go to work or i can shout for joy because i have a job to do.

Today i can complain because i have to go to school or eagerly open my mind and fill it with rich new tidbits of knowledge.

Today i can murmur dejectedly because i have to do housework or i can feel honored because the Lord has provided shelter to my mind, body and soul.

Today stretches ahead of me, waiting to be shaped. And here i am, the sculptor who gets to do the shaping.

What today will be like is up to me. I get to choose what kind of day i will have!